i am your guardian

Here's to your perfect weapon.
- Black Veil Brides

Let's be more than this.
- Paramore

Because sometimes, the world doesn't deserve the fuck you've been giving.

The pain of discipline will never be as great as the pain of regret.

Now is the time to open your eyes.
- 10 Years

How can this last forever?
- RED

Every move I make is the wrong one.
- RED

You are so far away, and it strains on me.
- We Came As Romans

^ That's me, right down to the video game controller. =3

You never know what you have until you're gone.
- We Came As Romans

I'm trying to play the B-Side to this awkward life of mine.
- The Wonder Years

You're the only thing standing in the way of your own happiness.
- swiftkaratechop

Beyond this world is worth fighting for.
- The Devil Wears Prada

I'm going under.
- Evanescence

I don't know what's real and what's not.
- Evanescence

You are the new drug.
- Thousand Foot Krutch

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So, can you guess what I've been doing for the past several weeks?  If you guessed "heartily opposing the internet censorship bills", then you're abolsutely right.  I've emailed my representatives multiple times, and have been spouting statistics and overviews to anyone who will listen.  My facebook is pretty much covered, as is my tumblr, though not as thoroughly.  My mom even joked that I should change my major to Political Science.  I'm pretty sure my friends want me to shut up already, but I won't  =p  Not until this thing is dead.

Other than that, I have a new receptionist gig in addition to teaching, and I plotted out most of my college career.  Even though I only started college in October, at the rate I've been earning credits, I should be a junior by Christmas.  Pretty beast, eh?  I'm stoked, to say the least.

Anywhoozles, sorry this blog has been inactive so long; as you can see, I've been busy!  Still, I'll try not to neglect it again.  <3

ashes to ashes && dust to dust

"I don't care what's going on in your life; when you step onto this floor, it all goes away.  That's what dance is for."

More and more, your demeanor looks like quicksand.
-  August Burns Red

Find a way to relate, or just shut up.
- Chevelle

I want to fight; I want prove I'm right.
- Chevelle

It's so pitiful, what you are, as beautiful as you are.
- 10 Years

What does this mean?  Where did it go?
- The Devil Wears Prada

I am no one's hero, so just forget my name.
- The Devil Wears Prada

You take the breath right out of me; you left a hole where my heart should be.
- Breaking Benjamin

I'd make a move if I had the guts to.
- Big Time Rush

And if my throat were to be cut from ear to ear, I'd hope that these words would carry on in these songs.
- August Burns Red

We can push through; we are one in this; we are not undone.
- All That Remains

So dance with me on these broken dreams.
- Abandon All Ships

I know we both made mistakes, but you could never fail me.
- The Word Alive

Mark my words: we're taking over the world.
- A Day To Remember

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Did everybody have a good Christmas?!  Mine started out rocky (Christmas Eve was terrible), but Christmas itself was very nice.  I myself received a new red PlayStation3 controller, Metal Gear Solid 4 (PS3), Secret Agent Clank (PSP), and Super 8, X-Men First Class, Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader, and Thor on Blu-Ray.  And of course, those booties I mentioned before! 

The following day (Boxing Day, I guess =p) I took advantage of some post-Christmas sales and bought Captain America on Blu-Ray, and special editions of Clockwork Prince by Cassandra Clare and Silence by Becca Fitzpatrick.  I'm a sucker for angel/fallen angel/nephilim fantasy stuff like that!  I also bought some new Monster High dolls for my sister and I - we each have three now. =)

Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year to all those who see this!!

Also, I have a tumblr now!!  dancinginthedrought.tumblr.com  <<  Follow if it tickles your fancy!

let it be

Sometimes, I think I'm a fool.  And then I remember that I wouldn't want to be anything else.

I hate those times when you have to reevaluate everything; when you have to decide whether to keep going because you've already spent so much time getting where you are, or whether to quit so you don't waste any more.

At some point, you have to kill who you've been so that who you are can be born.

Sometimes, doing nothing is the best use of your time.

You have to do what you think is important, not what someone tells you is important.

You don't have to be perfect, because I think you are.

^ I cannot tell you how many times I've wanted to choke people for mistakes like those...

It's okay to be afraid, just don't let fear control you.

We mustn't be mean to stupid people - without them, who would we laugh at?

They don't know what beautiful is.

^ Mike Hranica is easily one of the sexiest men I can name...and he's straight-edge.  <3

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Kind of a short update, but my photobucket wasn't cooperating, and since I've been idle so long, I reallyreally wanted to update.

So excited for Christmas!!  My mom bought me this adorable pair of booties with three-inch heels. Sure, that'll make me 6' 1", but who cares! They're so cute!!

We're taking a trip to Maryland in a couple weeks, and I'm going to use the opportunity to try out the malls up there. Hope they have a Journey's, I've been dying to buy a new pair of Vans!!

you need a doctor, baby? you scared?

Your knife, my back; my gun, your head.
- Asking Alexandria

I am no one's hero, so just forget my name.
- The Devil Wears Prada

What is this whispered thief?  Is it a lie; does fabrication begin at belief?
- We Came As Romans

Sometimes, the people that hate you can bring out your best.

If only he knew about the world without the bullshit and the lies.
- Asking Alexandria

You killed what was left of the good in me; I'm tired so let me be broken.
- A Day To Remember

Steps to a better mood: talking on the phone with the bestie; a hot cup of tea; a good book; a mind-numbing cartoon; good music.

Just what the doctor ordered: a hospital bed and a corner.
- New Years Day

I could have saved them; they could have saved me.
- Asking Alexandria

I guess you never knew me at all.
- Every Avenue

I do as I please, apologize for nothing.
- A Day To Remember

Always make sure you know who you are, and who your real friends are, because when the shit hits the fan, that's all you've got.

When you fall I'll be the only one who looks away; when you call I'll be the first to tell you I can't stay.
- A Day To Remember

"You cannot choose a sexy beard; you either have one or you don't."
Jeremy McKinnon (A Day To Remember)

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So, I recently discovered Asking Alexandria.  What took me so long??  AA is like all my favorite things rolled into one: awesome metalcore played by sexy British boys with sexy British accents.  I've listened to their song "The Final Episode" like thirty times in the past twelve hours, if that tells you anything.

I'm on my fourth cup of tea today, my sixth cup in the past fourteen hours, and my ninth in the past twenty-four.  Just throwing that out there.  <3

SCREAM IT LIKE YOU MEAN IT

If you could see like me, you'd see you haven't won anything.
- Oh, Sleeper

Stay focused when they've got you shattered and broken.
- The Word Alive

I love you; please believe me.

Show me your hands, let me wash them clean; show me your heart, and let me heal you.
- We Came As Romans

I could try a hundred times to tell you how I feel, but it's so much easier just to show you.

I can't stop selling myself short.
- The Devil Wears Prada

Give me your eyes so I can see through fire; give me your strength so I can stand so strong.
- Oh, Sleeper

I will never fall.
- RED

I will run and hide till memories fade away, and I will leave behind a love so strong.
- RED

It's a bittersweet kind of thing: having a dream so beautiful that it hurts to wake up.

Can you hold the water responsible for your wayward behavior?
- August Burns Red

It's time to take action; it's time to stay inspired.
- We Came As Romans

You're the straw that's crushing my back; you are the salt that's burning my wounds.
- August Burns Red

One day, I'm gonna forget your name.
- Evanescence

I'm gonna love you like I've never been broken.
- Demi Lovato

"Phillip's too good a name for you.  I should have named you 'Asshat'."
- Nalif (dude on the left XD)

I'm looking for the upsides to these panic-attack nights.
- The Wonder Years

I'm still trying to play the B-side to this awkward life of mine.
- The Wonder Years

No one's in my corner since everyone left.
- The Wonder Years

There's a brand new void inside of me.
- Relient K

SCREAM IT LIKE YOU MEAN IT

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Real life isn't beautiful.  Or sweet.  Or kind.
Real like is ugly.  And vulgar.  And cruel.

I've earned the right to be alone with you.
And she screams:

"What right is this
that you would possess me,
dare to caress me
like this?

Will you ever leave me,
do you even see me
breaking under your weight?

Your kiss:
an unwanted intrusion,
a one-sided delusion
branding me with shame.

I've turned off,
I'm used up;
do me a favor and throw me away when you're done."

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Poem property of yours truly...please don't steal.  If you want to use part of it, please be a dear and credit me?  <3

So I'm technically on Thanksgiving break now, but since I have a pile of American Literature homework...yeah, not really going to happen.  Ah well, I've got the Nostalgia Critic and my many guitars to keep me company, so I'm good!

Taking my driving test tomorrow...yeah, I know, nineteen and still unlicensed.  I've had my permit for 3 1/2 years, but I never got around to getting my actual license.  I mean, obviously I've been driving for a long time so I'm good at it, but I'm still scared out of my wits.  What if the person testing me is evil?  What if I screw up because I'm so nervous??  Wish me luck, I'm in desperate need of it!!